Sometimes we should let go things...enjoy the way life moves forward..no rewind...smile on the face...without reasons.... stop thinking about why's...there is no impact on regular scheduled things....life looks beautiful again...there are so many things we keep on doing without realising what makes us happy and what not....what i realised that there are so many things in my life which can keep me happy, motivated & full with energy (all the time)...that there will be no place for things which can unsettle me......wow..wow...wow......i generally use auto for movement...in my way..there is a train track which is parallel to the road...i suddenly realised that I enjoy when i see moving trains or even tracks...I forget the traffic halla gulla & generally day dream whn i see the tracks...i enjoy this small time period..this makes me happy...no problem with traffic...whenever i watch music talent shows..i am mesmerized when i see youngsters doing so well...it brings tears into my eyes and i regain my energy level...there is a lit of small small things....no reasons to unsettle.....LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL :)
How to deal with situation when some one can never think good about you, what ever you do? A pre-filled mindset, which can never think that you can do any challenging job. Someone is aware about all your defects & in spite of encouraging you, he/she does some act which discourages you.
The point here is that, in a way it is good for you that someone is making you aware about your defects. He/she may not want you to improve at all. These are the challenges for you. Remember one thing, even you accomplish something, he/she will never take in the right spirits...saying, good for you. So, you don't have to do things thinking that you are doing to show someone that you can also do this. Its you...Its your life....can't be dictated by someone else. You do, what you like but do not hurt anyone from your acts. There is no point in telling someone that..look..you are doing good but in a way you may be causing discomfort for someone else by your acts.
There are people in this world who when decide to do some act, forget about what discomfort they are creating for others...because for them...its like...I can do..so I will do...if you have any problem....get out......This doesn't mean that you need to follow this principle. Being bullish is not the right attitude..this may help someone achieve something but when you meet people with the same attitude..they are bogged down.....but the problem with the people of bullish attitude is that even they are down and out..they show fake attitude....they will not accept the reality....Its me..me and me...always me....come if you can come along as my follower...otherwise you are not required......its fake.....but unfortunately, you will find people who loves to be follower of these bullish attitude people(bshtd)....because.. these bshtd types are warm hearted to their followers...they know that if they have to survive...they need backups.....even though they will pretend to be independent by their acts....
You should forget about these bshtd people....you don't need their favor...you are not dependent on them....never pay heed to what they do or say....its meaningless for you......then only you can do good to yourself...you need to work on what you can do and not to think about what the other person is doing....you know your defects and you accept them..that's a first step.There are many people in this world who never accept their defects & live compromised life....You should not be one of them..of course they are in majority....but you can clean it all step by step....Remember....You have always improved yourself & this year is like no other...You will for sure do it.....Your pace may not be like others in all the cases but now others does not matter..You know yourself..Now..You should Love Yourself....Always appreciate yourself for small good things....Be your Hero...Do good to you but always remember not at the cost of someone else....this is you...God bless you :)
Sometimes my heart wants to vent out many things to someone close. when i look around, its sad to say but i am not able to find one. There are some very close friends but..... I have spent most of my life away from my family members. Although I am very well connected to them but I don't want to share everything with them. sometimes i want to cry in front of someone but i am not able to find one. sometimes i want to make someone agree to everything i say, i don't find one. There are many more things which cross my mind. These things now make me realize that life is not a smooth ride as it seems to be. This reminds me of constant struggle that is required to stay alive. Given a choice, I would like to spend most of my spare time with myself.Thank god, I have enough work to keep me busy.I am kind of person who hates to be alone. I love to be among friends and have a blast...but now it seems like things will change...the process has already started....don't know..if it's for good or it's for bad..I am bored of partying and night-outs. recently, I attended many marriage parties which has added to my misery..I can not meet people who make me feel uncomfortable..After some soul searching, I found that I have changed at least 4 group of friends in last 8 years. Now it has come to a saturation point..No new group of friends...Almost 70% of them are now married..20%..lost in their own world...nd the rest 10% have changed the meaning of a friend. For a person like me, who has spent most of his life away from family, whatever things i have done includes reference of friends everywhere..I feel very sad to post this blog.. I would have loved to discuss this with someone who can silently listen to me..look inside me and understand my misery...I find myself helpless at this point..I can't do much...I am not able to understand this change....
This diwali we(friends) planned/unplanned to stay in our new flat in delhi. We were not sure how can we celebrate it the way it's celebrated in a family. we are 3 of us. we invited some of our friends for diwali party.
Planning Phase:
Diwali Guest List:
Imran Zia Ankit 2 Datta Dev Vivek Bhupi Tapan Kali …………… ……………
Diwali Host List:
Ankit Vineet Vishal
Things to do:
Diya – 25 (actual: 40) Mombatti – 20 Fancy Light – 2 ( 1 for balcony & 1 for Entry gate) (actual:4) Small mandir ( Laxmi & Ganesh murti)
Eatable Items:
Sweets (we have @ home) Puri Sabji Kheer
Activities:
200 ka satta. Photo session. Dress yourself (best you can). Light Phoolzhari Launch Rockets from Roof top
Say NO to crackers :( Happy Diwali :)
We can add ‘RUM’ (if approved), only after Diwali puja :)
:)
Vineet
27th october: evening:
we purchased diya,hutlee,puja stuffs from H-Block market. we purchased fancy lights from khadar market. this was the first time in my life that i purchased these stuffs. walking down the road i cud feel that its diwali time. vihal prepared amazi9 chicken in the nyt for d dinner. I hope "surender" extends his holiday for sum more tym 'nd' let us explore new possibilities every day :)
28th october: morning:
My job was to clean the Kitchen. I got up early (was it?) 8 AM. Ankit and vishal had to clean the balcony. We have one of the best balcony in sarita vihar. they (ankit nd vishal) acted smartly and hired kurawala to do the cleaning for them. balcony looked sexy after the wash. we cleaned drawing and our bed-rooms. we moved the sofa, chair and tables to balcony. sitting arrangement was done.
28th october: noon:
Vishal wants to buy pathan suit and that too in black colour. Zia came to help him. we went to batla house to buy a pathan suit for vishal. only white suit was available. vishal was disappointed and then we decided to some shopping. H-block market: accessing ATM for the 8th time in last 2 days:) My god....phool ki maala..was so expensive...35 rupees for some 45 inches......anyways..we had to..so we bought some to decorate our entry gate...while coming back home, we dropped in our local market to buy a big diya,candles....we fought over purchasing crackers...left this for evening...
@ home:
Let's take some rest..but where is the time...so we took some energy boosters :) we decorated our entry gate with phool-mala. Now was the time to setup fancy lights in the main balcony and the smaller one. (vishal prepared chawal-daal for lunch. we had a fight over subji..so only daal-chaawal)..decoration was done...itsss...4:30 PM....so many things to do....so we moved out again for purchasing final list of items...P1 was energy booster...delhi had a dry day so we went to faridabad border....got it....cumming back..zia and I went to H block market: deepak color lab to purchase crackers: purchased....rockets,anaars,cracker-ladi and phoolzharis....don't ask about the budget....I thought vishal and Ankit would kill me for this...I also bought 2 more fancy lights..Imraan also joined us...
28th october: Evening:
Time to prepare diyas and set batti in it. I took up the job. I placed batti in diyas. no one told me that the upper part of batti has to be rolled over so that it can burn quickly :) Ankit and vishal are in the kitchen: preparing kheer...he he....time to take bath..we dressed up smartly :)...now waiting for our friend Ankit2 (mr. pandit) to come and set things for laxmi-ganesh puja and for puja. Kheer is ready with kaaju,kishmis....wow!!!....Ankit2 and Mr dutta finally came...we set up things for puja..it turned out to be a good puja...its video recorded :) punditji sang bhajans..we tried our best to sing along.... we lighted all diyas and candles...after aarti, we placed diyas in every part of house,in balcony and in front of the house. looks gr8!!
we burnt phoolzharis in the balcony. we were jumping like small kids. smile on our faces...18 till i die :)
we all moved to balcony with snacks, soft drinks and energy boosters.....it was the time to play cards...so we played dummy satta games..no actual money involved...we loved it like anything... time to prepare puri and subji....we all came back to drawing room...music is on....vishal cutting vegetables and ankit rolling atta for puri....d card game was still on with energy boosters....
we all moved into kitchen.....puri tal rahi hai...sabji ban rahi hai....ankit2 helped vishal and ankit....dinner is ready....now its time for crackers...
we all came on roof...one by one we launched rockets in the sky....with the help of King Kobra :) d whistling sound of rockets was damn cool....
time for anaars and laddis....we all came to the main road in-front of aggarwal sweets...11 PM... we lighted laddis and threw on the road....the sound of crackers..phatt..phattak..he he..was cool.. vishal was doing -------processing on road-side...dutaa babu threw laddis below his legs...vishal...running like...dog is after him...we had a mast time....time for anaars...it was d show time....buring anaars in hand...its dangerous..but we are daredevils :)
Now its time for the dinner...wow!!!! it is delicious....ankit and vishal are great cooks...no doubt....hats off to them!!!! Kheer was very tasty...we finished everything... :)
Time to say goodbye to guests.....Bye Bye.....amazi9 diwali night......but somewhere in our hearts we were feeling the pain of not being with our family on diwali....but we all came together and enjoyed....thank you guys.....keep rocki9..
life is not always a roller coaster ride. How many times you think you can fall in love? Every relationship has its phases. There is nothing called this is right and this is wrong. You grow with every new partner in your life. Life is about moving on and on. You can't decide and then fall in love. It just happens. There are different modes of Love. Every mode has its way and its amazing. I don't think you choose people to fall in love. There should not be any restrictions. Let it go because this is the special moment in your life. You should not have any regrets..no guilty feelings. This is the best moment that you are going through. Feel it because it will not last forever. When you see into each other's eyes...when you wait impatiently to meet each other...when a kiss re-energizes you...walking on the street with hand in hand....that touch......tell me.....don't you like it......you feel that you are on seventh heaven....you want to spend the entire life looking into each other's eyes.....whatever time you spend with each other is not enough....you capture the smile and you keep on re-winding it ....and you love it..while driving you stop..did you see your partner....is he/she right dere....uff....nopes...u laugh at yourself and move ahead...tell me don't you feel awesome when you play the same romantic song again and again.....you smile without reasons....every time your phone rings....you think its your partner....when you talk to each other..you copy and repeat what the other is saying...you laugh.....everything you do is straight from your heart. Keep your hand on your heart and take a deep breathe...you will feel it...Love happens without reasons....without any expectations..there is no pressure to meet deadlines....complete milestones...nothing to win..nothing to loose...its above all this....just think...it makes you forget the pressure of life..you are always relaxed...people who care for you are happy to see this change in you..
TAKE A BREAK............................................................................THINK AGAIN..................................
Why fall in love when you can have all the fun of life without going through the emotional cycle and most important..side effects of love....after effects of love.....
It depends on the person you are.You can love someone without any commitment...when there is no commitment....after effects will not give you sleepless nights...
SO,
DO FALL IN LOVE - MODE WILL BE DECIDED BY THE PERSON YOU ARE. You can fall and rise quickly to fall again :)
why can't someone come out of their past? You have got only one life to live...whatever has to happen will happen here. Good, bad, success, failure....everything....in this life only.....Something which happened in the past should not affect the present or the future. Of course, there are learning’s that you take from your past but that doesn't mean you will apply the same to your present. You can't compare things based on past data. Everyone is unique and different. There may be things which two people do or say the same way but that does not mean they are made of the same stuff. If you try to map everything with your past then it will hurt you for a longer time. You want to say or do something but you can not do it because you will start justifying things according to your past. You can not enjoy your present. You think you have a problem. You think this is destiny. Not correct. This is not true. These things come out because people do not want to accept things. "No.....I will not accept. why me? why me?...I am good...I never did anything wrong...I was 100% devoted...then why me??? why this happened to me.......I wanted something and i did not get that and now I am getting something but why should I take it......I have a problem......things may repeat itself....no..no......If i want something then I want what I want....not that I am getting........I will live in my past and If I try to live my present to the fullest then that would be crime because how can I be happy? I can''t be happy because nothing happened what i wanted...let me be sad......this is the way people should be...and i m right.....at least i will take some years to come over what happened in the past....I don't deserve good things....I don't deserve good friends.....I should not say what i want.....".................................................................................................................................
All negative........
It depends on an individual what sort of life he/she wants....there is nothing like I deserve this or I deserve that...no..no......life is the way you want to be........so one should try to be happy....try to express oneself as far as one can.........if you don't like something be straight forward...this is the mantra of leading a happy life.........and again the bottom line is .......you have 1 life to live............choice is yours..........traffic light counter doesn't wait.....it goes green...............or it goes red.........................so what I feel...there is no time frame for anything.......i will say this on that day....i will do this after sometime..........do it what you want...when you want.........love your life.................cheers :)
When a longer discussion is ongoing, there are times when confidence level becomes very high and at that time one of the partners says something which is not justified in the current situation. This is because of over confidence generated during the process. Actually speaking, intentions remain clear, but meanings differ and that causes a wrong impression in the minds of the other partner. This also depends on the human behavior of the person to some extent. The moment you think that I have to keep my partner happy, problem ceases to exist. You never see any problem. when issues are raised, you look for solutions rather then showing discomfort. Having this mind frame is not easy, it is very difficult for anyone to keep thinking about happiness of the other person. People say they are able to do it, but not able to sustain the same behavior for a longer duration. The self can not hide itself behind walls for a longer period of time. When self starts playing its role then meanings change. what is being said and what is being interpreted suddenly changes. Mood swings and at the end there is only one winner: self. so now the question is how to kill this self bug? bottom line is "you can not kill the self bug". You can only hide it as long as you want. So, how to keep the self behind bars for a longer duration? I am able to identify some parameters which can keep on increasing the jurisdiction period of self. These are Faith, Trust, soft spoken, acceptance, believe, respect, truth & moral values. If someone can keep a guard on these parameters in any situation then self can not malign the intentions. when in doubt:
check Faith and say.....Do I have 100% faith? check Trust and say.....Do I have 100% trust? check that are u still soft spoken? check acceptance and say.....Do I have 100% Acceptance? check belief and say.....Do I still believe 100%? check respect and say.....Do I still have 100% respect? check truth and say.....Do I still see 100% truth? check moral and say.....Do I still see moral values in place?
when any parameter does not meet 100% criteria then take a pause...think again.....and you will realize that something is wrong & you can correct yourself at that point.
Wow!!! cool.....I never thought I can write such stuffs.....I hope this will help me in my future conversations.
Saturday....pending office work...rush to office......evening back @ home.....plan for a movie.....movie time .....11:25 Noida spice..... 3 friends...chill out....finished 3 beer.......speed of the car....60-80 km per hr........boring man...need at least speed of 120....... time in hand b4 the movie....2 beer.....planned 4 greater noida express way......1 more beer in ........and special thanks to.... atif aslam........album...meri kahanniiii......speed 120 K.............cool.......last beer...U turn of the expressway........song..ghar se.. main nikla......speed...140K .......wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tht was amazing........i love 140 K..........well put ur hand out of the car...nd love the speed of the wind........sing along atif...........life rocks.........movie time......house full...chicks...nt tht hot.....yuk man........ hope....movie is gd........fresh faces......chicks...nt tht hot again......bt movie turns out to b good........who ordered the large size pop corn......wht a waste of 200 bucks........doesn't matter......end of movie......sm aftr beer effects.......pappu can't dance saala...... lookin 4 dhaba.....time mst be arnd 2 AM.......all closed man.......bt den...roadside stalls.......bck to home......gd night......
